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beach dress,check.
straw bag,check.
bags,unpacked.
nails,not painted yet.

and im still stuck at daddy's work.
HAIYO.

So excited for tml.
Gotta pack my bag later after i finish daddy's work.
HEHE.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN,PEOPLE.
:DD

Humans are weird.

When too much attention is given,
'I NEED SOME BREATHING SPACE.'

When too little attention is given,
'YOU DONT BOTHER ABOUT ME ANYMORE.'

Personally,i would prefer the former.
& just wondering where would be the equilibrium.

I've been wanting to have mac breakfast with jon for the longest time.
FINALLY,WE ATE MAC BREAKFAST.
YAY:D

not that we haven eat mac breakfast together before,but we haven eat it together for quite some time!haha.

rmb last time jon stayed awake for fear that he would oversleep and skip having mac breakfast with me.so he stayed awake the entire night,took train in the morning to batok to eat with me.so silly right.hehe.

most of the time jon will be hearing how much i enjoy mac breakfast,now he can eat with me.hehe.
silly boy woke up super early though.
:X

after eating,i took train to school.

and pictures now:)



1. slim down rightttttttttttt.HAIYO!


2. he claims that he doesnt look good in the morning.excuses only.HAHA!

Have been sleeping without pillow for the past 4 days?
I dont wanna have hunch back!
At least i think without a pillow,i wont hunch much.
hehe.

Our anniversary is approaching,and i have the urge to reflect on jon and i.
With so much thoughts running through,I took quite some time trying to sort out every single thought clearly.

Whatever happens in a relationship,it always concerns 2 parties.
Happiness is contagious,so is unhappiness.
Make yourself happy first before you even want to make the other half happy.
Often easier said than done.
After this 1 year,its always jon who always tries to be happy,so that he could make me happy.
My source of happiness.
:)

Give and take.
Taking is easy but giving is extremely hard.
Its normal for couples to quarrel.
In fact,from my point of view,its actually good to quarrel.
At least you would understand each other's point of view.
Friends would ask me silly questions such as 'You and jon got quarrel before not?'
Maybe i appear to be extremely happy with jon or that i almost never tell them about any quarrels.
But jon and i do quarrel/bicker.
Good thing is we make it a point to solve everything before we sleep,and at least we'll start the next day fresh and happy.

Jon stays at Kovan while i stay at Bukit Batok.
For the past year,i've been feeling bad for him sending me all the way home,and train back again.
& for the past year,he just kept answering 'Distance is never a problem'.
Waking up at 5am to train to batok to have breakfast with me.
Staying up for fear that he would oversleep and train to eat with me.
Send me to school in the morning.
Cab to my house during midnight to spring me a surprise
Bring my favourite food/bubble tea right to my doorstep
Sending me home at least 98% of the time.
If we were with his friends,sending me home first and going back to meet his friends.
There're more,but indeed he proved that distance is not a problem.

Jon always feel that he is my 'xiao nan ren'.
In this relationship,ashamed,but i am the decision maker for most stuff.
Most of the time,Jon will just give in to me.
& he once said that he is not afraid of me whining,being angry or anything.
He is just afraid that i would be upset/unhappy.
Maybe that is why,he gives in to me,almost all the time.
Ashamed to say,i took it for granted.
I often throw tantrums because i know at the end of the day,he is going to give in to me.
This is super unhealthy,and its time to change.

For friends who know me well,I might look quite open to many things,but in fact,i am super conservative.
I cant accept smoking,shisha,clubbing,girls hugging jon,girls touching jon yada yada.
might sound a little kiddish,and like 'wtf,you're 19!'.
hmmmmmm,maybe i brought up in a more conservative environment.
But for me,jon gave up almost everything he could,just to please me.
Heartache sometimes when i think that he is giving up hobbies he love,just for me.
I am sorry bebe,and i am thankful and appreciative for what you have done for me.

Before this relationship,i've never ever believed that I would change for someone.
Always felt that i live life my way.
If someone loves you,he would accept you,not change you.
This perspection is history,credits to jon.
He would try quit whatever i hate,stop doing things which i dont like.
Ultimate aim to him: 'I just want my gf to be happy.'
He said that he is happy whenever i am,so he will want to make me happy.
And changes you made for me,i am thankful and appreciative.
I'll try my best to also change myself.
I know you always want me to have more faith & trust,to be positive and most importantly,to stay happy.
I want my bf to be happy too.

Happy moments shared but at the end of the day,many would still think that 'You so in love with him,later break up sure damn upset'.
True enough,i would be upset,very very upset.
I often spring random questions to jon.
So there was one night i asked if its good if i am dependent on him and what if one day he leaves me.
He actually prefers me being dependent on him and said that 'If loving someone,you have to love with a barrier,afraid of being hurt,then why love?'
So meaningful,at least to me.
The thoughts of him leaving me should never come across my mind,but what if,just WHAT IF he does?
My answer would be,at least for the time spent,we have made it all worthwhile and i truely loved him.Unsure of why the sudden surge of confidence now,but i feel jon truely love me too.

Thank you,for your love.
Thank you,for the effort put in.
Thank you for the happiness.
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for your tolerance.
Thank you for everything.
:)

& i mean it when i said,given a choice again,i'll still choose to be with you.
never ever regretted.
dont be silly to ask me if i regret my decision.
hur.

haven done blaw,and now im here at t9,trying so hard to understand the weather.

I wish the lecturer can be punctual.
So darn warm outside the classroom!
Grouchy.

So many plans with jon,and its getting me super excited.HEHE.
Wanna go cruise,bali,bintan,johor with love.
:)

AND AND I FINALLY KNOW WHERE I WANNA GO FOR MY ANNI!:D
asked fion about the sentosa's luge thing during break.
seems pretty fun,and i wanna go thereeeeeee.
and jon agreed to bring me to sentosa for our anniversary.
oh joy!
:DDDDD

sucha sweetie to bring me wherever i want to go,
to do whatever i want to do,
to eat whatever i want to eat.
:DDDDD

wo hen kai xin.
zhen de hen kai xin.
HEHEHE.

I want a longer weekend!
WHINES.

oh man,parents say im hunching my back.
& i didnt even realise it.
damn it,no no.

if anyone sees me hunching my back,please give a hard pat on my back.
Permission granted.

Friday's short outing in town.
Cause i had driving lessons after that and the rest had plans too.

FOOD FOOD & MORE FOOD.
HAHA.

walked around.
and hi gil:)
gave me a shock when you actually say you read my blog.
and i haven forgot that while i was walking in front you told ni 'I DIDNT KNOW SHE IS SO SHORT.'
sulks,made me cry for one night.
HAHA!

HI NI,AND JY TOO.
:D

okay picturesssssssss:D

1. my randomness to take pics out of a sudden again.HAHA.nobody was ready but i can see my very happy face though.HEHE.


4. forgot where we took this at.haha.

So i went out with my parents to ion today.
wanted to shop so badly.
and thennnnnnn all the stuff that i wanted,either it has no size,out its out of stock.
super upsetting.

but in the end bought nice vest and cropped top.
oh happiness.
:)

still have lots to buy.
but oh man,miss selfridge cleared of the blazer that i wanted to get!
:(

initially,jon wanted to get for me but i keep saying no no.
and then now when i wanna get myself,its gone.
BOOHOO.

okay,so it was ion,timah then home today.
just had pastamania delivery.
bacon aglio and nachos.
SEXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.
except aglio was a tad to oily.
HEHE.

okay,school's tml.
and there's a change in timetable.
D R E A D.
BOO!

I am amazed by how some people work.

Like how they can be so straightforward,
And completely disregard the feelings of other people.

So what if you're senior?
More thoughts needed,on yourself that is.

im still on bed now,so darn tired.
And i wanna shop so badly.
Boo.

And i know i owe ytd's meetup a post.
Wait till i decided to switch my com on,then i'll blog about it alright?hehe.

And gradually with phone being able to connect to the internet,my laptop is of decreasing significance.

And i rarely go on msn now,its just fb fb and more fb.
But im sometimes really bored with fb too.haha.

jo: *talks about food,food & more food
jon: baby,you're so rude.
jo: why?
jon: i cannot book out then you keep talking about food.HMPH.
jon: *MORE COMPLAINS
HAHA!

i shall talk to him about waraku later.
or maybe sushi tei sounds good.
oh no no,nyny is fine.
ayam penyat too.
HEHE.

blogging in fc6 now.
Hehe.

Forgot my ezlink card today and pmsed the entire journey to school.
Then husband told me lecture cancelled.
Pms a little more.
Then finally,when i reached,lecture resumed again.
Zz.

But at least jon managed to cheer me up.hehe.
Called me his kopipeng.
Hehe.
So cute.

Okay,outta point.
Hehe.

Oh my,so much happy thoughts tonight.
I will NOT sleep at 3 tonight.
I think i will smile in my dreams.
HEHE.

Jon's fault.
He is suffering from insomnia and we have the habit to talk almost every night before we sleep.
His insomnia is making him super energetic at night.
POOR ME.
I dont suffer insomnia,but excessive happiness at night.
I cant sleep after hanging up the phone.
HAHA!

After reading this,he is sure gonna complain,
'Always blame me,now my fault againnnnnnnn.HMPH.'
like baby like that.
HAHA!

And actually,nothing really happened.
In fact,nothing happened.
I AM JUST DARN HAPPY TODAY.
HEHE.

FEEL ME,SHARE MY JOY.
LOVE ALL.
:DDDDD

Happy day = Start school late,end school early

Happy day tml.
:D

Blogging using my hp.
Cause i almost died laughing alone.
I need to share.

Texts between jon and i.
Jon: baby,boy boy say when the night when you accepted me,you were drunk.lame right.haha!
Jo: really quite drunk uh.but i think the day when you lfell in love with me,you had shit in your eyes.haha!
Jon:i didnt know you were a shit,cause i only had you in my eyes.hehe.
Hahahahahahha!

Tell me whether to laugh or cry.
Jon is so cute sometimes,love him.
And oh btw,my definition of cute is not ugly but adorable.
Its,lovable and yet annoying.
Hehe

Both tutorials cancelled today,no school for me.
OH JOY.

but im so so so tired.
and ive attended only 2 days of school?

coma from 10pm-1030am.
haha.

and im so hungry now.
and tee bitch says that im super whiny today.
damn it,i think she just know me ytd or something.
HAHA.

and ni ni love,good luckkkkkkkkkkkk:D
play well today,then friday mee sua love.
HUGS.

okay,gotta bathe soon,meeting PEE at dover then town.yay.
:D

oh,for readers sake,
idy tee=idiot pee=tee tee=pee=tomboy.
thanks to nini and me.
HAHA!

Gemzz tml.
And i predict i'll become a loner.
So used to annoying the gems teacher by laughing too loudly with nini.
Now im like alone,worst,its 8.
And i dont even know how to get to T9.

Gotta reach early to figure my way.
BOO.

AND AND,PLEASE LET ME WHINE.
MY THROAT HURTSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
CRIES.
:'((

Just came back from the clinic.
Suspected throat ulcer.
Strong medications prescribed that might cause gastric.
If i dont cure in 2 days time,i have to go back for xray.

HAHA.
at least,i made jon feel better by consulting the doctor.
loverboy is getting uptight with my throat.
but hehe,i feel the love luhhhhhhhhhh.
hugs.
:)

at least something to be joyous for.

My day started right,with a surprise call from jon at 6am.
:)

but school's bores me.
and my hurting throat and gum made my mood worse.
boohoo.

like finally,i agreed to let daddy take me to the doctor.
after like a million pursuasion from daddy and jon.

and im like so tired now.
YAWNS.

With much reluctance,school reopens tml.
& i gotta turn in real soon.
School starts at 8.
BOOHOO.

Rest early,love all:D

HAPPY FIRST MONTH,BABY JUSTIN:D
okay,so its nephew's first month.
:)

really cute,but super grouchy.
silky brown,beckam look-a-like hair.
big big eyes but loves to sleep.
so you hardly see him opening his eyes.
haha.

okay,celebration over at chevron's.
nice function room.
:)

went over early to do up the decorations.
what a lucky baby.
i dont even rmb how mum and dad celebrated my first month.HAHA.
but i know justin has a hugeass balloon.
HAHA.

damn it,i sound like im jealous.
HAHA!

okay,pictures.



1. 2nd brother,and i really love the mask.hehe.





1. meeeeeeeeeee.hehe.

Kinda into light make up these days.
I think i grow older.
HAHA.

School starts tml.
SIGH,YAWNS,BOO,SULKS,SOBS,WHINES.

found out whats my gems alr.
UNDERSTANDING THE WEATHER.
dont wtf me please.
HAHA!

blogging using my hp now.hehe.
And i can finally connect to my home's wireless.
Sexxxxxxxx:)
I did nth.normally i cant,but i randomly tried connecting today and tadahhhhh:)

Awww,i feel like some tech savvy chick.
Hehe.

And i wanted to get a blackberry but i find it too bulky for my palm.
Plus my e71 is so much more sleek and slim.
Yay,not a wrong choice.

Not knowing whether to trim my fringe or cut bangs,
i changed my parting.

feels weird,but at least i look different.
or at least to me,i look different.
so i curb the temptation to cut my hair,temporary.
:)

& hi love,take care for 2 weeks alright?
see you when you are out.
which means,see you on our anniversary.
HEHE.

and no worries luhhhhhhhh,
i'll take care of myself:)
XOXO.

i hope i can hurry save and i wanna get my own home.

i'll eat grass from today onwards.
and im just kidding.
HAHA!

but i really wanna get my own home luhhhhhhh.
haiyo.

told jon to hang out with his friends last night,
so i cabbed home myself.
hehe.

and jon cant book out for the next 2 weeks.
so my silly love cab to my house at 1am to give me a surprise.
:))

i was half asleep,but awwwwwww.
had the sweetest dream last night.
:))

and the con of having a tall bf,
i swear my neck is aching like mad now.
sometimes,i dont like looking at jon.
feels like my neck is breaking.
hehe.

but oh baby,love you.
:))

forgot to register for gems and the lecturer called.
scare the shit out of me.
and whats worst,i didnt know how to register!

woke idy up.HAHA!
half asleep,she taught me how to register.
HAHA!

and whats worst,
i got the 8am slot on tues.
now i have 3 days of sch starting on 8am.
wonder how am i gonna be puntual for school.
damn.

and know what?i forgot what i registered for.
idy,tag me my gems module please.
HEHE.

and wonder why people dont tell me stuff and yet expect me to know.
maybe last life,i was a genius or something along that line.

and i may not be the best daughter.
but i feel,i've done my part.
but if that's not enough,i'll just try harder.

good night people.
YAWNS.
:D

Walked around town with ww and des today,in search of nephew's gift.
didnt buy it in town though.
cant really decide.

jon met me up at dhoby ghaut,headed to kovan,
and finally bought the gift.
stayed at jon's place for awhile,
went cityhall and met up with ww and des again.

had popeye's for dinner.
mike came after we eat.
:)

picturesssssssssssss.

1. MAIN CHARACTER FOR THE DAY:).jon bought me this care bear cause i was saying that the colour is quite nice.and wanted to get for my nephew.but jon was like 'come,i go pay.but this is for you.'.HEHE.so i have care bear on my bed with me now:))

5. candid shot by random bf:)

thats that!:D

Randomly organised a super duper mini bbq last week.HEHE.
and bf gave a go ahead.
just jon,me,ww,ren and girl.
hehe.

at least we all enjoyed.
:))

bbq,swam.
little joy accumulated.
:))

limited pictures though,unglam ones.
HAHA.

1. wonder why jon always cover one of my eyes?reason being,i want him to block part of my face but always due to height difference,he will block my eye instead.HAHA.

4. ww sit properly.HEHE.

next post!:D

THROAT HURTS.
THROAT HURTS.
THROAT HURTS.
THROAT HURTS.
THROAT HURTS.
THROAT HURTS.
THROAT HURTS.
THROAT HURTS.
THROAT HURTS.
THROAT HURTS.
:((((((((((((

i did super massive updates today.
but much as i want to continue to post about last week's events,
i cant find my memory card reader still.
boohoo.

till then,XOXO.

oh random,before i XOXO.
i haven meet 2 ladies for darn long,guess who?
or maybe one is not lady since daddy calls her tom boy.
HAHA!

OKAY,XOXO.
:D

2 weeks back,so jon and i went to vivo for shin-kushiya.
love their smoked salmon sushi.
YUM YUM.

jon ate their curry rice,and he love it.
while i ordered nabeyaki udon or something.
HAHA.

the food pics are with jon,and his com is down so he cant send me.boo.
but nvm!
i still have some pics though.
hehe.

walked around vivo after that:)

1. halfway through eating at shin-kushiya.HAHA.i insisted to take this pic cause there's a rice on his upper lip.HAHA!and he complains that everytime this happens,i will laugh at him instead of helping him clean.HAHA!but really funny uh.HEHEHEHE:D

2. met up with jon's friend.they were eating at ben&jerry's and i had craving for sweet stuff,so we ordered some ice cream and brownie thing.love their brownie luhhhhhhh:D.yum yum.

This was a month back.
So we went to marina,watched the ugly truth,walked all the way to flyer to have popeye's.
YUM YUMMMMMMMMMMM:D

then love sent me home.hehe.
:)



1. marina basement:)

This was 3 weeks back,after i stayover at jon's place.
so he sent me home,and stayed to watch soccer.
and helped me with the laundry:)

but after which,i wanted to play mahjong so badly.
but there's only jon and i at home.
HAHA.

so he said we could play 2 person mahjong.HAHA!
and he kept saying 'this type of bf where to find?'
HEHE.

love love luhhhhhhhhhhhhh:)

picturesssssssssssssssss:D


1. HAHA.I SWITCHED HIS SOCCER CHANNEL OFF.THUS THE FACE.HEHE.


4. okay,it was night time alr,and he was watching soccer i think.

5. stupid face no.1.HAHA!

6. cute face no.1:).love this pic,dont know why.he act yi ge shy.HEHE.

nexttttttttttttttttttttttt:D